First week of Posting

*Farhanah and me*

Yea..I'm here and being to add somethings new on my blog..

What is my feeling right now?

I also dont know..you know?can answer for me..I think that is about mixed feeling.

I finished my 1/3 of my 3 weeks posting(one week la).

What i really hoping is,the other two weeks pass faster and i wanna go back my sweet sweet home..

I miss them so much.

Remember that,Monday(13/9) was my first day for posting.

I used insomnia on one day before and cant fall asleep but even full of anxious and worries in my thought.

The Monday,really tired.

Monday was the day of orientation .That was didnt involved any patients and wards.

I should be sleep well on Sunday but should not worry .

Tuesday (14/9/10)

The second day was wards orientation.

I got the chance move inside the ward and room,and see the patient.

My ward is Department of Internal Medicine(DIM).

The room i get is male room.

So that,all my patients will be male.

I felt sad when i knew that i got the male room.

I scared wif the male.

This day,I felt useless on myself.

It is because,i didnt what should i do inside the ward's room.

I did nothing on that day.

Really,i felt myself was useless.

I cried silently in my deep heart.

I felt scare.

I scared with MRSA,HIV,and some others contagious diseases.

I even did not dare go nearer to the patients.

That day,i was asking myself,"can i do that?",did i choose a correct career?

Suddenly,i lost.

I felt helpless,scared,and wanna to give up.

I used to be insomnia that night also.

I worried abt the another coming day while i was lying on the bed..

Unluckily,my roomate was not around this period,she went back hometown.

So,i slept alone.

So,i asked Catherine came for accompany me to sleep.

I felt better after that.

{p/s:physiotherapist}

Wednesday (15/9/10)

Catherine went back hometown today.

Felt some lonely this day.

Hsiao Hui was in Medication Certificate this day and absent for posting.

So that,she used to make up(replace) on coming saturday.

I got a better feeling this day.

At least,i did somethings today.

This day,i got chance to chat wif some patients.

They are really kind.

My better feeling also came from them.

But,i felt pity for some patients who those are very ill,immobilize,incommunicate or cannot eat.

Really feel pity to them.

Thursday(15/9/10)

This day is afternoon shift which work from 1pm to 9pm.

I reached home abt 10.15pm .

Afternoon shift is more senang than evening but,the time seem like passed slowly than morning shift.

It is because not many many task to do compared wif morning shift.

I felt sad .

I failure to get my patient BP readings.

I felt dissapoited to myself.

Friday (16/9/10)

Yea,Friday.Last day for this week.

I really cant wait to finish my posting AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

Because,it is really tired.

Then,i will keep on giving stress to myself.

I felt heavier and heavier on my shoulder.

Wish that my another two weeks will be finished ASAP also.

Cant wait for going back my hometown.!!