~The End~

时间过得真快，还有两天，2010年正式结束了。

已经回不过去了。

在这一年里，经历了很多，但是，我并不见得自己成长了许多。

我还是那不堪一击的我。

我从新加坡回来的生活让我觉得我离开家里，到外面去生活，也许多我是好的。

我发觉，如果当初我选择继续留在这儿，我会是怎样。

前几天，被一些事情困到了。

今天，那事情已经被解脱了。

看书真的很好，可以想通一些事情。*不是爱情小说，不是漫画*

可是今天，又有别的事情让我烦恼。

看来我又要再看书了。

我好久好久没有向人吐我真正内心的心事了。

感觉上，我自己好像也有很大的问题。

有时候觉得，我才是真正寂寞的那个人。

是我自己把自己绑了起来。

就算之前有多么的想把自己释怀，也为自己想好了怎样去实行。

可是，我就是欠缺行动。

行动比千句万句来得重要。

我希望在我回去新加坡前，我真的能够找到机会跟身边的好朋友，一个就够，让我真心的吐一吐。

我真的很需要。

那才是我真正充电的方法。

已经回来一个星期半了，还有三天就要回去了，我都还没把自己充电起来。

我知道每个人都对自己的生活很烦，很累。

可是，我依然希望有一个人能够从我眼中看见我的累。

一句安慰的话，已经足够。

但是，为什么总是那么难呢？

*曾经在我眼前，却又消失不见*

这时，我想起他了。

Lynn

幻想

最近，我看了两部韩国剧。

一部是《神秘花园》，另一部是《原来是美男阿》。

我中毒了。

我看上瘾了。有点控制不了。

中毒，我想原因也是因为被他们的爱情故事，剧情的变化而产生的。

这两部戏的歌曲很很很好听。

感觉就是想爱却无能为力。

其实，我有点不该让自己去迷。

因为，看了这样的剧集，一定会有幻想的。

尤其是对爱情。

突然间，我很想爱~

很想拥有爱情。

我想，如果自己真正遇到那样的爱情故事，会是怎样。

因为我知道是幻想，所以我也清楚知道，我是平凡人。

平凡人，只拥有平凡的爱情。

不会成为童话里的白雪公主。

也不会戏剧里的女主角。

我是平凡的。

那样的爱情，我也许永远都不会遇到，甚至负荷不起。

剧情永远都是剧情。

在现实的生活中，是极少的。

剧里的歌，很好听。

当我听到剧里的歌曲时，真的会令人很想哭。

因为，爱情真的很令人无奈。

想爱，却不能去爱。

想去靠近，却总是更加痛苦。

不想靠近，总是不知不觉中靠近。

想要离开，总是想念。

我还没真正的体会到爱情，我也还没遇到我的爱情。

只是，那两部韩剧，令我想要爱。

有时候，我也会想，我几时才会遇到？

还是，会不会遇到?

感觉自己被故事的情节而影响。

变得着急，变得期待。不再像是从前的那么从容。

但是，

当我打这篇文章时，我的电脑响起一首歌那就是戴爱玲的〈对的人〉。

“爱要耐心等待，仔细寻找，感觉很重要，

宁可空白了手，等候一次真心的拥抱。。。”

隐隐约约中，像是提醒我不要那么急。

嗯，我会变回正常的。

只是给我一点时间。

我就不会再胡思乱想。

变回以前那样，以平常心去等待。

慢慢等待属于自己的缘份。

等待那份真挚的拥抱~

等待那个对的人。

等待属于我的爱情故事。

感觉上，这一篇是我为第一次为自己的内心情感坦白宣发出来的。

是那么的裸露，安全感有点跑了。

但是，应该不会有人留意我的blog，应该不会怎样~

别误会，不是那么“恨嫁”。

是突发事件。

*我一定要为自己解毒，只有自己救得了自己！*

我相信缘份。

Lynn

Here~!

Actually,I wanted to update my blod last time de.

But,there was too many things and too busy last time.

So,I am going to update now for all the things that I want to write.

The most happiest is,I'm home now.Malaysia home...hehe

I was sitting in the bus about 7hours b4 reaching my home.

It was extremely tired,and sleepy.

I will be hime until 1January2011.A very very NEW YEAR,2011,woohoo...:D :D

I will be back to Singapore at 2January2011,8am bus.

Wish that 2/1/11 will not be reached in short time.

The arriving of that day mean that my school reopen and have to fight with my presentation,exam and skill assessment.Tired man....

But,one month after that date will be the Chinese New Year.

Of course,I will be back to Malaysia again =)) although the price is very expensive and the custom will be very crowded.

Next..

It is a good news.

I got an A in my first paper test.

My Bioscience ICA 1,woohooo...I got an A.

It is so good........I feel good~~~~~~~

(13/12/10)

Then,

15/12/10 is my first skill assessment(skill test) day.

This assessment is going to do some nursing skill and the lecturer will beside you and assess your every procedures.

It will be very challenge,because the feeling of panic and nervous.

Although you know all the steps,but,you may feel helpless and forget every procedures while a lecturer stand beside you.

I experienced it.

I did badly in my last semester skill assessment.

For this round,I feel myself got improvement.

I did it quite smooth...

Although I still very nervous,but,luckily that i still can cope with that.

The lecturer who assessed me praised that I did a good job too^^

woohoooo~~~

Thanks god.Thanks my little lucky angel which stay with me.

For this holiday,I have to make full use of it.

I have a lots of matter to be done.

Especially is my projects works.

It is quite worry and stress as a leader.

I am worrying that i cant lead them and do it well..

This holiday,it's not easy~~~

But,I will handle and "take care" of it well..

*His shadow appear in my mind this recently and it's quite oftenly.*

Last week before HOLIDAY !

I'll be back this coming Saturday!Hooray~~
Hmm...That's about 6days more.
I can't wait already~~~
I am missing my sweetest home.
My family,friends and my doggies.
Seriously,I miss my doggies a lot.
They made fun for me.
They made me laugh.
I love my family and I love them too.
My doggies are my family members too.
They are included in our life,even my father,mother and brother.
We love them!
Although,I have to wait until the day comes.
This last week,I will be quite busy for it.
I will be having my Nursing Skill Test on Wednesday 11ooam,Theory Test at 6pm the same day.
Even,I have to sit for 3 hours which from 3pm to 6pm for Open House 2011's briefing.
Luckily that no ICA presentation this week,but have to prepare draft.
*What a BUSY week*
After the holiday,will be a very BUSY study life .
All the matters crush each other,eg,3 ICA presentation,2 Skill test,CNY,Semestral Exam,Chinical Posting.
I will be doing by rush all of this in 3 and a half months,from 3/1 /11 till 18/3/11.
18/3 /11 is the day i finished my second clinical posting.

This few weeks,it was really filled with ups and downs.
My emotion turned and turned.
I encountered a lot of problems.
But,it is categorized as ONE for me.
I havent be strong enough.
Probably,I am.
I know that,but...
Simply I just need timessss..
Maybe is longggg time.

The last time I went back home or stayed at home was two months ago.
Along this two months,I lost many many but gained nothing in this.
I wasted tooooo much.
I wasted to dream.
I wasted to think too much.
I wasted to worry.
I wasted to spend.
I wasted to angry.
I wasted to my principle.
Etc.....
I had did my reflection frequently.
But,seem like that's do not have certain effect for myself.
I keep doing and repeating unconciously.
U.N.C.O.N.C.I.O.U.S.L.Y....
Yes,that's it...
I have to reflect on"unconciously"...
I have to.....

12/12/10..
I had a great steambot dinner with my current housemates.
I was enjoying my steambot with them.
I had a great day with them although I tired enough to prepare.
I had a great moment with them althiough I felt full enough to eat it.
I also have to thank them,they were not letting me to do all the stuff alone but they were helping me even before and after.
Conclusion,great day with them.
But,this kind of day will not to be longer anymore,i think.
We have to separate next year March~~


p/s:I will remember reflection about "unconciously".XD...


~Lynn~

First of December 2010.

十二月的来临，象征着假期。

这次的我还在上课，十七天以后才能放假。

但是，在这十七天内，并不是那么的轻松。

我有考试，两个科目，三张paper.还要准备开学的ICA。

因为，我两个星期的break都不会在新加坡。

所以，想早点解决。

我不想再像以前的presentation一样，那么的赶，前一天才做。

当做完后，就是present的时候，果然很新鲜。

但是，我们根本没有准备的空间。

当我们present的时候，我们才看过一遍，根本与观看者没有分别。

有时候，我非常不满意我的组长的做法。

每次都推到最后才做。

我知道她的能力好，可以只看一眼就可以present与elaborate。

但是，我们其他的不能，好不好？

每次我们问她进展如何，或是需要小组讨论吗？

她就会说“可以的，没问题的~”

听到都讨厌！又是那句。

无论如何，接下去的ICA一定要改进！

十二月一日，今天点进网站看新年的巴士票。

我的理想巴士的票被扫空了。省下的timing不符合我。

过几天，也许明天我就会定巴士票了。

但是，应该是定Aeroline的巴士吧。

我没有选择了，地点时间方便我的，只有它。

但是，它很贵叻。一张票新币五十。

普通的才三十加加。

等我确定了就会马上订票的。

在迟疑就不用回家过年了。

今天晚上，有一个坏消息。

我们的房屋计划泡汤了。

原本已经策划好，约好了。

可是，既然因为某人退出。

其他的也跟着一样。

现在，计划完全泡汤了。

我也不确定以后会跟谁一同住。

也许可能会自己一个。

其实，我很害怕。

当你生在外出，家人都不在身边，就会体验到。

我，也不敢把事情告诉爸爸妈妈。

告诉他们，只会令他们更加担心我一个人在外面的生活。

而且，他们是远水，远水救不了我这个近火吧。

我需要勇敢地面对，生活下去！

告诉自己，慧玲，别哭！坚强！！

就算自己一个人，我也要生活下去。

我要告诉自己，没有你们，我还活着，还死不去。

其实，我很生气他们。

难道他们不懂什么是义气吗？难道他们不懂什么是信用吗？

告诉你们，你们在我心中的信用已经破了！

义气与信用对我来说，是很重要的！

我不可以那么懦弱。

不可以爬不起来。

跌倒是短暂的，学习爬起来是长远的！

加油！！

*一个人知道自己为什么而活，就可以忍耐各种生活*

Something about LOVE

夜深了，是写blog的好时光。
在夜里，总是想的比较多。
尤其是一个人的深夜。
这阵子，身边的朋友都向我提起爱情。
我认识它吗？
应该吧~~
好笑的是
竟然有人说
“慧玲，其实你喜欢谁啊？”
“希望你跟某人在一起”
“希望有人在背后支持你”
“你那么爱哭，希望有人愿意给你肩膀”
其实还蛮好笑的。
那些我都希望阿。
可是，不是说要就要的阿。
那些奇怪的问题要我怎么回答阿？
我自己也不知道答案。
其实很羡慕其他一对一对的朋友。
他们都有很爱自己的那一位。

这个阶段的我，只好等吧~
等待那位神秘嘉宾。
至于几时会出现？
什么时候才到他上台？
是个未知数。

我，没有任何的抗拒。
只是，真的还没遇到。
我，会期待。

还是，已经出现了？
只是我还没看见？
那希望我别错过吧。

*明天会更好*

25/11/10

It was a bad day for me !

At first,I almost overslept this morning.

I woke up late this morning,about 25 minutes.

On class,I draw lot for next week SBL lesson teammate.

SBL is a very challenging lesson.

That is about apply the nursing skill as realitics.

High experience,skillful is really expected for SBL.

If not,will be panic until dont know what to do.

Unfortunately,I team with Mr.H,顶~~

Can someone safe me from this situation?

Mr.D,can you??Hopefully you can,but,I will not request you de.

So,the percentage is very very very low.

Then,never mind lor.Just accept it,there is no choice for me.

(Although,I still hope someone can safe me)

I have to be very very diligent,skillful,steady and 醒目 on that day.

I am in the terrible worrying situation.

I even can't imagine what will I be on that day.

Crying out??

Shit la~~~

The next one is my Presentation.

My HS1085 Family And Community Health's ICA.

Damn sad about it.

I feel terrible and damn anger about that.

Why always be like that.

The power point's slides always done by last minute b4 the presentation.

After assign the slides,just only have about 10 minutes to "know" it.

Be a friend with it.Say hello to it,and Understand it.

How can I manage to do that.

Somemore,that is need me present in English.

My English so poor.Somemore,I totally can't talk smoothly even thinking while I am panic.

That was like a perfomance which never prepare and rehearsal.

How terrible is it for me.

"Kanasai(s)" are appear on my mind.

I said KNS when I am angry.

I said KNS when I unsatisfied.

I said KNS after presentation.

I said KNS always today~~~!

Poor HuiLing~~

This few days,that people's shadow appeared on my mind oftenly.

His face.His look.His style...

But,there was something quite confuse me.

I am worrying that something will really happened on me.

I failed to advise myself to be wise.

I failed to advise myself to be who am I.

I failed to explan/understand what I did,sometimes.

SO...............

Recently,I sensed somethingssss...

I would like to find the answer.

But,there are still got other consideration need to be concerned.

But,the answer is quite obvious which showing to me.

I think my six sense accuracy will be high enogh. XD

I am going to donate blood tomorrow.

But,I scare I failed to do so.

Because,I am worry my blood vein not large enough and disqualified.

Many of my friend were disqualified by this reason.

Tomorrow is my first try,hope that will be my first time too.

I think that is so meaningful if I am able donate blood to someone for saving their life.

It is a proud for me.

I am a future nurse what~~~

Start the little responsible from now ba.muahahaha

*Donate blood is not part of job for nurses,paiseh ooo*

Donate blood ! Someone safe me ! Donate blood ! Someone safe me !

Wish soooooo.....

Lynn

=Wake Up=

There is about 20+ days never update for my blog here.

Actually,i did not have time to update.

Why?

Because I wasted my time currently.

I wasted to SLEEP!I wasted to play!WTF that i did ?

Since few weeks ago,I felt low energy already.

I did badly in everythings.

I did not make use of my precious time.

I did not make use of my second SEM's time.

I felt regret badly and deeply.

Now...

I awake already.

Thank for someone to "remind" and "wake me up" indirectly.

Seriously,they were not encouraged me !

That's I found something bad from them.

I realised that I am such an idiot and did nothing this currently.WTF!

It's seem like I was dreaming among this period.

Because of them,I realised that I cannot continue waste my time again.

Because of them,I realised that I need to improve.

Because of them,I know that I cannot be so quiet again.

Because of them,I have to start fighting now.

Because of them,I AWAKE !

Because of them,I know that I have to prove myself to them.

So...

I need HARDWORKING

I need BRAVE

I need DETERMINATION

I need STRENGTH

I need ENERGY

Don't leave me aside please.

I have to start the preparing for my fight!

That will be a long term fighting.

The 5 components above,I need you all forever!

Remember,

YOU will be my LOSER !

Don't ever try to enrage me !

But,you did it !

aka aka fighting!!!Just do it !!

遇见

一见钟情….

有一些“一见钟情”可以容易被占有，拥有，买回来…

好比如说，一见钟情的包包。

一见钟情的衣服。

一见钟情的鞋子。

还有一些容易得到一件钟情的东东。

对我来说，一见钟情的感觉是一种很强烈的感觉。

它会对你造成很大的影响。

它能影响你的情绪。

它能让你突然很有那种冲力出完成一样事情甚至预料不到。

至于，后悔不。因人而异吧。

有些人因为拥有了一见钟情而感觉很幸运，很幸福，因为那被自己“遇见”而且还来得及拥有。

有些则为因为来得太突然，某些神经未经过大脑而自己却做了某些后悔的举动而让自己后悔。

而我呢，买东西，如包包，衣服，鞋子等等，都会相信所谓的一见钟情。

大数都不会觉得后悔。但是“遇到”条件更好的，当然会觉得自己亏呢。那是常情。

但是最后还是不会后悔占有化一见钟情。

有些一见钟情并没有那么简单。

遇见他，就是不简单。

其实，“遇见”真的不那么简单…

“相处”，以及“时间”也不那么的简单。

当“一见钟情”，“遇见”，“相处”与“时间”产生了化学作用，一切一切并不简单。

当我遇见了他，再不直接的相处那一小段的时间，真的不简单。

最后，时间更胜利地遥控着.

遇见他，再与他相处，时间控制了我对他的感觉。

之后，时间把我从中抽离，让我离开有他的倒影里。

我以为我能随着时间的迁变而摆脱那个临时演员的角色。

可是，时间却成了我的证人。

我还没忘却，我以为我还是那临时演员。

我还在有他的倒影里。

时间也见证了，过去就是过去。

我无法回到那有他脸孔的过去。

甚至，时间还一直提醒着我要抽离。

走在街上，我们仍然无法再像第一次那样有缘的遇上。

无论走到哪，都是那么希望着遇得见你，让自己开心。

也想让自己有个理由停留在那个角色，有你的倒影你，不想离开。

可是，事实是残忍的。

我们再遇不上了。

我记得以前，一天都会遇上你好几回。

有时候我会看着你，有时候会故意把视线放在你不在的方向。

现在，后悔了。

后悔当初没有看多你几眼。

但是，我依然记得你的样子，

记得你的眼神，

记得你的背影，

记得你走路的方式，

记得你的认真。

可惜，就是不记得你的声音。

有时候，

清醒的我会懂得提醒自己做该做的事情，那就是忘却。

但是，我真实的想法是忘却吗？

其实，我搞不懂…

我是你的临时演员？又或者你才是我的临时演员？

也许，那才是真正的问题。

我好想再遇见你，可是，那样我会欺骗自己。

欺骗自己说与你有缘。

就如陶晶莹《我爱故我在》书中的“爱的预兆”sign of love，人们都会把一些些的恰巧说成是上天给的sign,缘分之sign。

那就是所谓“为爱新人强说缘”…

但是，我并不到究竟缘分会怎样。

不能断定什么。

对我，

总之，缘分天注定。

Sign 或不，也没有什么方程式去衡量吧。

Timing of Love应该是比较“重点化”。

Be Right Back *again*

明天就要回去新加坡了。

第二学期将在下个星期一开学。

回到上课，又要碰那些presentation,tutorial,lectures....

比较喜欢lectures 课。

老实说，还是不那么喜欢 presentation 和tutorial。

那是因为presentation 和tutorial 不像lectures那样。

Lectures是几班一同上的。喜欢坐哪，和谁坐都行。

反而其他两个都是跟自己班上朋友的。

有时候，恨不得时间快点过。

到现在为止，我还没找到跟班上每一位同学沟通的方法。

我只是懂得某部分的。

无论怎样，对我来说是大挑战。

想起上个学期，算是满快过去的。

希望接下来的也会那样。

当然，我比较希望能够与他们相处融洽。

毕竟还要同班多两年半，直到毕业为止。

说到Presentation,下学期，又不懂会怎样分组。

这一个是最“挑战”的。万一进了不属于你的恒星。

考试分数，presentation 分数就这样了。

阿门！

现在的感受，和之前每次回去之前的都一样。

就是那种不愿离开的感觉。

第一次回家的时候，回去新加坡时，坐巴士。

当上了巴士，坐下来后，望下去跟爸妈挥手，哭了。

还记得上次八月份假期后回去。

一上火车，跟爸妈挥手，眼泪就已经流了下来！

我的眼泪至今依然败给那地心引力~

我还怕明天，我的眼泪又要言败！

每次到了这一刻，就会觉得自己很辛酸。

干吗要离开家。

回去上课就真的只是上课。

因为不喜欢那种气氛。

之前的我，去上课就是为了去上课。

去上课就是为了“出席”。

有点可悲。

我真的觉得自己不享受在那儿的学习。

上课，都期待放学，放假~！

老实说，当我回到新加坡的家后，我第一件会做得事情就是——倒数！

我会拿纸出来画格子。

倒数回自己家的日子。

每过一天就删除一天。

前几个月都是那样度过来的。

感觉上，新加坡除了是我读书和工作的地方，就没有其他的角色了。

我还没找到让我留恋的人事物。

我希望有一天，我不需要再这样倒数回家的日子...

我希望有一天，我会为了某人事物留在那，不奢望回家...

有时候觉得自己很可悲。

为什么要那样？

有时候会觉得很后悔！

但是，后悔已经没有用了。

现在要做的就是擦掉眼泪，删去懊悔，继续勇往直前！

日子会很很很很快过去的！！

加油！

我允许自己偶尔的跌倒！

但是不可以永远不起来！！！

My Long and Straight Hair

Yesterday,I cut my hair.

I cut it short.

Now,my hair only reach abt shoulder there only...(just over a bit)

This is the second shortest that i cut since my whole life till now.

I still remember that when i was at secondary school ,that is abt form3.

I cut the shortest in my life till now...

That one was accidently.I cried that time.I remember that time only left a small "tail"there.

I really sad and keep blame that cutter.I cried badly after i went home.

This time,no more accidently.

I request indirectly.

I said"Try your best to cut all damaged hair"..

Then.kena liao~!

That is abt 10cm cut off already..

I also cut my fringe short.I didnt keep it long.

But,i feel regret!

The fringe that cut for me is not as what i imagined.

That is not suitable for me~!

Damn sad now!

My hair was rebonded at June.

I cut it just after 4months.Is it worthy?

Inner struggling.Worthy(money) VS Damaged hair..

When I sit on the chair at the saloon.

The winner is damaged hair.

Once i done my cut,i feel regret.

Now,i am still wonder who will be the last winner for myself.

I miss my LONG STRAIGHT hairs .

Hopefully my hair can grow faster and use the shortest time to become long long long again.

Thinking that December (when i coming back again from Singapore )wanna to do something on my hair again...

Rebonding staright ? Perm curling hair ?

But,the most important matter right now is let my hair grow faster!!

Sad-ing and REGRETING !

为什么啊？

有时候，我真的有点不明白。

为什么一些人明知道会被伤害还是要冲前去？

明明，身上已经留下深深的烙印。

那烙印就印在自己的回忆中，感情中。

为什么他们还是没有学会保护自己？

难道他们喜欢被伤害的感觉？

难道那就是所谓的犯贱？

对这些人，我真的无言！

也许，当中也有自己的乐趣。

当发生事情的时候，请别说后悔！

请别说很受伤。

请别说自己交错朋友！

请别再怪罪为什么他们那样对你。

因为，那是你自找的！！！

那...不是第一次！

还是？？你也和那种人一样？

一样那么的人面兽心？

也只是禽兽一个？！

是吗？

也许，以后，我会知道答案！

Oprah Winfrey

“人生最冒险的事，就是你从来不冒险” 这一句话是出自于欧普拉（Oprah Winfrey）的。 这一句话有很深层的意义。 我觉得这一句话很不错。 我也觉得欧普拉很有想法。 她是一位不平凡的女人。 我很欣赏她。 赞！ http://www.cw.com.tw/article/index.jsp?page=3&id=35386

The Student Nurse's Life Before Holiday

Well,my two weeks holiday are under progressing.

Alright,I am home(Malaysia) again lor...

Actually,maybe some

body will feel sienz ans ask"why this Hui Ling always come back one?"haha

My very very first clinical posting which last for three weeks ended .

That clinical posting can say that started with HORRIBLE+WORRY but ended with MEMORABLE+HOPE.

These three weeks,i had learnt a lot .Beside that,I was counting down for the last day of posting since the first day.

I got much feeling from the patient who admitted to the hospital.

Many of them are old age peoples.Some of them do not have any visitors even do not have any relatives.

They are so lonely and much pity than us.

I also found that,some of the patients do have sons and relatives.

But,they never come for visiting them.

They are really pity even that they need assistant for life.

What is the sons or daughters for if the peoples walk to old life like that.

Where are the sons or daughters when their old father mother need them?They are busy?Maybe...

Are they willing listen and take care of them?

I really cant understand.

However,i hope that i will not slap myself of what i had said myself when the future time.

I hope that i will beside my father and mother when they are old and need my caring.

I hope that i will not be one of the daughter who are busying for other when they need me.

At my posting period,i had assist some old patients.They need assistant for daily life.

When they helped by us,i saw into their eyes.

What i saw? There is not painful,not suffering but crying.

They were crying silently.

I saw loneliness from their eyes.

I saw helpless from their eyes too.

We do not know that how strong are they look forward for their relatives to visit them.

They are so lonely.

They are so helpless.

Even,they are so pity and they felt meaningless when nobody going for them.

What we (student nurses) trying to do is,caring for them.

Care for them,chat with them,there are the only things that we can do for them.

We are trying hard to do so when the time is allowed.

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For these three weeks,i am quite happy and joyful "working" with my colleagues.

I also got the chance for making more new friends.

Even we are not so close.

But,friends is better than enemy..hehe^^

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The next one is my very very close colleague..

She is Chit San.She is from myanmar.

Her name seem like chinese name.

She is very cute.

She is the only one who same ward,same room.and same shift with me.

I am quite appreciate her for these three weeks.

She helped me and encouraged me a lot.

She is a nice girl.I'm glad that she is my friend.

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Next is QIN RU...

She comes from China.

She is a very hardworking girl.

She has her own idea and not easy affect by someone..

How old is she?

haha..22 years old already...But,she looked so young...

>>>i like this photo so much ~~!!

First week of Posting

*Farhanah and me*

Yea..I'm here and being to add somethings new on my blog..

What is my feeling right now?

I also dont know..you know?can answer for me..I think that is about mixed feeling.

I finished my 1/3 of my 3 weeks posting(one week la).

What i really hoping is,the other two weeks pass faster and i wanna go back my sweet sweet home..

I miss them so much.

Remember that,Monday(13/9) was my first day for posting.

I used insomnia on one day before and cant fall asleep but even full of anxious and worries in my thought.

The Monday,really tired.

Monday was the day of orientation .That was didnt involved any patients and wards.

I should be sleep well on Sunday but should not worry .

Tuesday (14/9/10)

The second day was wards orientation.

I got the chance move inside the ward and room,and see the patient.

My ward is Department of Internal Medicine(DIM).

The room i get is male room.

So that,all my patients will be male.

I felt sad when i knew that i got the male room.

I scared wif the male.

This day,I felt useless on myself.

It is because,i didnt what should i do inside the ward's room.

I did nothing on that day.

Really,i felt myself was useless.

I cried silently in my deep heart.

I felt scare.

I scared with MRSA,HIV,and some others contagious diseases.

I even did not dare go nearer to the patients.

That day,i was asking myself,"can i do that?",did i choose a correct career?

Suddenly,i lost.

I felt helpless,scared,and wanna to give up.

I used to be insomnia that night also.

I worried abt the another coming day while i was lying on the bed..

Unluckily,my roomate was not around this period,she went back hometown.

So,i slept alone.

So,i asked Catherine came for accompany me to sleep.

I felt better after that.

{p/s:physiotherapist}

Wednesday (15/9/10)

Catherine went back hometown today.

Felt some lonely this day.

Hsiao Hui was in Medication Certificate this day and absent for posting.

So that,she used to make up(replace) on coming saturday.

I got a better feeling this day.

At least,i did somethings today.

This day,i got chance to chat wif some patients.

They are really kind.

My better feeling also came from them.

But,i felt pity for some patients who those are very ill,immobilize,incommunicate or cannot eat.

Really feel pity to them.

Thursday(15/9/10)

This day is afternoon shift which work from 1pm to 9pm.

I reached home abt 10.15pm .

Afternoon shift is more senang than evening but,the time seem like passed slowly than morning shift.

It is because not many many task to do compared wif morning shift.

I felt sad .

I failure to get my patient BP readings.

I felt dissapoited to myself.

Friday (16/9/10)

Yea,Friday.Last day for this week.

I really cant wait to finish my posting AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

Because,it is really tired.

Then,i will keep on giving stress to myself.

I felt heavier and heavier on my shoulder.

Wish that my another two weeks will be finished ASAP also.

Cant wait for going back my hometown.!!

51th

The 51th post...

I wrote previous 50 post while the time passed unconciously...

Oops,the time flied,and alway flys.

Before starting to type this post,i was considering that should i stop blogging and deactivate my account?

But,i decided to continue my blogging.

As my blog's title "Along memories",沿着回忆, every pieces of my post even every single words are parts of my memories.

I started this blog since 31/1/2009.

Nowaday,i have 50 pieces posts as my collection of memories.

Even though these are not as much as others,but,all are my life puzzle pieces.

Life like a puzzle.But,my puzzle is undefinity.

I do not know what pattern will my life is.

I do not know what is the next piece of my puzzle.

I do not know what kind of people will be met at the next second.

I do not know that what will be my next action,emotion.
I just simply collect all the puzzle's pieces and keep it .

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I will going for my FIRST clinical posting at hospital tomorrow.

At that moment,i am a student nurse and have to take care of my patient.

What i need is CARING.

I hope that i really can give all my love,all my caring to my patient.

I wanna be a good,caring and lovely nurse.

"Nurse" will be my furture occupation.
So that, i should have deep affection for it.

Wish that my attachment's period all will be very fine.

I wish that i enjoy it~~

Yea,Hui Ling..You can do it !!!
I try to encourage myself constantly.

Gayao !!!

I also wish my other friends enjoy it too..

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Then,I will try my hard to operate my blog.

Although i do not have many visitors but i work it hard for myself.

Becuz it is my memories.

I will try my very BEST but do not promise anythings like update everyday or etc.

Because,if wanna do something happy,we should not tie to it but let it free.

Somemore,if you did any promises,i think the consequence also will end up with broken promises.Promises are not promises anymore.

So,just let it free and let it go.

To all my friend !!

最近听到一首歌，是七朵花的“my dear friend"。

听了之后，我觉得很有意义。

我要把这首歌送给我的朋友们。

就算我没有在马来西亚，我还是很关心你们的。

我的心还是在你们那~~

一有空，我会回去的。

就如歌词中所说，在这个拥挤的世界，我们的相识是缘分~

你们都是我永远的朋友！！

我不会忘记你们的~~

爱你们，朋友！！！

Na~ La~

交换心情笔记 一同去旅行 约三天后剪个同样的发型
爱心特别给你 我做的事情 暗恋的那个人不懂我的心
我们比姐妹还亲 彼此的秘密 都能守口如瓶
我们不同的过去 没什么关系 未来才该珍惜
My dear friend 不管刮风下雨 你有什么事情
陪你一起等风雨过天晴
My dear friend 世界如此拥挤 我们能够相遇
是这个世纪最biang最炫的奇蹟
感谢你的聪明 补我的粗心 缺一个就好像少了一根筋
刚好你的兴趣 是我的专利 这一点让我们更惺惺相惜
我们比姐妹还亲 彼此的秘密 都能守口如瓶
我们不同的过去 没什么关系 未来才该珍惜
My dear friend 不管刮风下雨 你有什么事情
陪你一起等风雨过天晴
My dear friend 世界如此拥挤 我们能够相遇
是这个世纪最biang最炫的奇蹟
Oh my dear friend
My dear friend 不管刮风下雨 你有什么事情
陪你一起等风雨过天晴
My dear friend 世界如此拥挤 我们能够相遇
是这个世纪最biang最炫的奇蹟
Na~ La~
嗯... 我们好不容易走到了现在
虽然中间吵过好多次架
但是我相信以后的日子我们还是会继续手牵着手
因为有你们 才能坚持到现在
我们约好罗 以后老的时候要一起回忆这些美好的时光
谢谢你们 my dear friends

The third month

Today is 9/7/2010...

I came to Singapore last 3 months ago,5/4/10.

Time passes so fast,three months is over here.

Sometimes,i was thinking that what was I did for this three months.

Honestly,i am feeling bad.

I know and learn somethings this few month.

My feeling turns over and over again..

Good to bad..Bad to good..Good to bad again..

Feeling tired too.

I felt very emo recently.

I don't know the reason.

My probelm?

This kind of feeling is BAD.

I think about my home and wish have a long holiday and go back my home all the time.

Of cause,this is due to i feeling uncomfortable here.

Even i go back Malaysia,i also do not have many activities,only stay at home.

But,it is better than every things at here.

No need to worry so much.

No need to think so much.

No need feeling EMO every moment.

I hope i can really growth up at here.

I don't want be a "small child" again.

I want to achieve what I want actually.

I want be brave,no more "ham bao".

I want be proud that I am YAP HUI LING.

Since i coming back from Malaysia last break,i seem like getting EMO faster and faster.

I like to say something very very bad to some people.

It is because i also "beh tahan" already.

I want be MYSELF..

Time passes fast.14 weeks later,my SEM 1 study life will be end and followed by SEM 2.

Among this 14 weeks,only 4 weeks is normal study time which is study from Monday to Friday.

3 weeks is clinical attachment(working/practice in the hospital) ,2 weeks is exam week and 5 weeks is vacation leave..

My holiday will separated into 3 weeks and 2 weeks time due to my clinical attachment and exam.

Gayao!

Telling myself,BE RIGHT BACK!

DOING THE THINGS THAT BEST FOR MYSELF !

Sad

Haizzz !!

I lost my phone!!!

I am very sad now!!

Me so careless...

Feeling like want to kill myself..

I hope that my phone will be back .

But,if happened,that is Miracle...

I LOVE YOU ~~

13/5/10

always remember that day~~

Buzy

I am very buzy this few days..

My time is running off.

My time is out of my control..

Time passes time, it is already third week,i need to rush my In-Course Assessments
(ICAs) Presentation .The total of my ICAs is 4,I got 2 ICAs should be presented on week 5..

Gonna to die ...Haizz..

No time,no idea...

Headache about all of this...

Only first few weeks,we need to discuss and presentation already..

Haiz...

Such "challenging" life...

Now,I gonna be stressful and stressful.....

Feel breathless now....

What can I do?

I already try very hard to slove my problem.

But,dunn0 why....

It seem like very difficult for me~~

What is the problem?!!

I should ask myself...

Am I lazy?

I should ask myself so.

Guan Yin Ma,bless me plz.....

*breathless

*hopeless??

*useless?

*wishing to have more time for solving my problem.*

Recent Life

来update咯~~有点迟啦~~

上个星期是我开学期，很忙下~~

基本上，我是从早上八九点出门至傍晚六七点才回家的~

我们有时候，最早的课是八点，最迟的课是到六点。

回到家都要七点了~~

回家后又要自己弄晚餐，洗衣服之类的~

真的很累的~~

现在的课呢~都还好啦，但是还是很累。

我每天都睡不够~~

不懂是睡不饱还是什么的~~

haizz.

现在的课呢，都有很多group presentation,差不多每一科都有~

那些老师都说什么在考试是帮助提高分数~~

但是，每次分组讨论会很累的~~

因为，我们不是很多空闲时间啊~~

别看小group presentation哦，它们可占了每一科考试总分的大约50%。

所以阿，就算有多困难，都要“呕”出来~~

现在目前为止，我上六科，那就是：

1.Critical Thinking

2.Communication and Customer Service

3.Bioscience

4.Foudation in Nursing

5.Laboratory

6.Phycology

日后还会再加的另外一科~

另外呢，我还学法文，(FrenchLanguage).

第三个星期开始，每个星期一都要留在学校学哦~~

下午三点到六点~

haiz,又要迟回家了~~

这些生活都要慢慢去适应的~~

以后还有很长的时间去忍耐~~

上个星期六，过得还不错啦~~

中午时，跟朋友去游泳池。

她们游泳，我看她们游泳~

因为我不会游阿，我也没有泳衣~

但是，我不排除我迟些日子会去学游泳哦~~

看到她们在水里玩，我很想跟她们一起呢~~

过后呢，我跟我的roomate（她是pahang人）一起去explore回去马来西亚的交通以及路程。

我们决定坐火车回去~

我们已经买了火车票~

我们会在16/6那一天回去~~

朋友们，注意咯，我们可以见面咯~

当然，我也非常非常希望我能够成功回到去~

因为阿，我怕有什么projek之类要做~

然后就影响了~~

我一定会尽我的全力回去的~~

因为，我也很想回去阿~~

过后呢，我们就去逛逛，也买了一些东西~~

简直就是购物狂~~

哈哈~~

有一些最近的照片都post在facebook上了~~

想看就去按按咯~~

最近好像有点有点生病了~~

抵抗力变弱了~~

伤风了好几天都还未痊愈~~

现在希望体温不会升高~~

升高就要发烧了~~

*passionate*

*hardworking*

*be smart*

*be tough*

*determination*

=balik kampung~~wowowo balik kampung~~~16/6/2010...=

想家

这几天，我很想家~~

想马上回去见见我的家人。

呜呜~~~

尤其在没有东西做的时候。脑袋好空闲。

然后就很想念家人，朋友们。

甚至很想哭~~

有时候，在怀疑，出国读书，深造，对我来说，是否是对的决定。

以为，我发现，原来我很恋家~~~

我放不下他们！

我爱他们~

不懂此刻的他们过得好吗？

有想念我吗？

有生病吗?

有好好享受吗？

工作辛苦吗？

每次冲凉的时候，都会想哭。

我变得好懦弱。

我突然觉得当初的决定好像有点太突然了。

我还是无法相信，自己接下来的九年要在这儿度过。

也许接下来会有一些不一样。

我非常希望我能够变得更坚强！！

此时此刻的我，就要靠自己了。

那个温暖的我，只能偶尔回一回。

但是，那会永远都在我的心中！！

加油！！慧玲！！

一定要坚强！！！

考试加油！！

课外活动加油！！

心情加加油！！

一定一定要是最快乐，最轻松，最棒的！！！

我要放松自己！！

我要快乐！！！

近况

我来咯~~

之前答应过一些朋友会常常更新blog,以便让他们知道我的近况。

四月五号：

我从马来西亚飞来新加坡。

大约一点多，就到达Changi Airport.

之后呢，负责人就来接我们咯。

他们在机场买新加坡sim card给我们，派ezlink card 给我们（类似touch and go）。

然后就分屋子。

还给了我们200元新币。

之后，senior 带我们去我们各自的屋子。(有巴士载）

我们的屋子还不错吧~~

两间房，一间厕所，一间store room,客厅，厨房。

但是，不能煮饭，因为暂时没有煤气，而且，煤气也很贵。

也许天天吃杯面，或者打包，或者用饭煲煮吧~~

一间屋子有五个人。

我的房间只有两个人，另外一间是三个人。

那三个人都是来自东马，sarawak的哦。

所以，她们一起咯。

而我呢，就跟一位来自pahang的女生一起睡咯。

她的名字是凯琳。

接着，学姐带我们去买日用品，打扫屋子。

其实屋子里的设备蛮齐全，有床，衣橱，书桌，饭煲，煮水的煲，洗衣机，煤气炉，杯碟碗筷子。

冲凉房还有热水器。

其中一间房有厕所哦，那就很方便了。

我听说阿，新加坡的屋子很贵。

就好像我这间这样，flat来的，租金都要1600新币一个月，不包水电费。

如果买屋子，一间大概要300千，新币哦（flat），贵吧？

吓到！！

四月六号：

今天一早就起身了。七点就出门了，去做身体健康检验。

大约十二点半才结束。很久吧。才十多个人。

我们是去Singapore General Hospital (SGH)检验。

我们是新加坡政府sponsor的,所以不必付钱。

那间医院很大叻~~~

如果不会走，会迷路的。

而且哦。还是一个部门一个blok.

哇塞。

而且好有系统哦。

之后呢，有负责的人带我们去学校走走。

我们有尝试搭巴士，很方便叻，都是用卡的。

而且巴士很快就来一辆。

我的学校名字是Nanyang Polytechnic (NYP)。

我的学校很大叻~~

有很多blok.

很美。

食堂的食物也算便宜！！

过后，负责人带我们搭MRT （火车）。

火车也很快叻~~

我们都是用卡搭的。

我也发觉，新加坡人，打多数都是走路，搭bas和火车。

蛮环保的哦~~

今天，我也知道了毕业以后服务的医院。

我是去Changi General Hospital (CGH).

那边距离我现在住的地方很远叻。

但是可能会再搬家。

这儿的负责人说可能两个月后搬家。

搬去更符合赞助商（医院）的要求。

那就是两个人一间房，一间屋子六个人。

还不确定啦。

我是觉得我现在的情况很好啊~~

我家的附近就有很多东西卖了，又MRT站，巴士站，摊子，shopping complex.很方便叻~~（所以房价那么贵）。

四月七号：

今天没有活动。所以就自己解决自己的空闲咯~~

早上起身后，去楼下丢垃圾，然后顺便到附近的公园走走，和朋友聊天

那个公园很大，很凉快~~

之后回家上网。过后就出去了。

我和朋友尝试自己去学校。

因为开学的日子离不远了。

还好，我们都成功去到。

之后，回家前，又去买东西。

买了很多，有水果，杯面等等~~~

这三天用的钱已经超过一百元新币了~~

haizzz

我还是以前的我~~

p/s:很想念家人，朋友们~~~

有点想哭的感觉了~~~

有点害怕~~~

Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You

现在，我的心情有如这首歌。

"Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You"

有些事情不能说变就变的，尤其是深深刻在回忆中的人，事，物。

就算我离开了，并不代表我会忘记。

虽然这首不是新歌，但是深深打动了我。。

我把这首歌，送给我爱的家人，每一位爱我，疼我，想我的姐妹们，朋友以及学弟学妹们，还有......

学弟学妹们，你们要加油啊！！！我会永远永远爱你们！

明天就离开了，我现在剩下的时间，二十四小时都不到。

我曾经告诉自己，不能因为舍不得而哭~~

我很怕。。。因为。。。时间越来越接近。

感觉也变得不一样了。

但是，这一趟，我一定会离开。我不会再迟疑。

明天中午十二点，我一定会在飞机上。

每一次，都是“你”先离开，每一次的不告而别，

都带来我无尽的生气，

这一次，是我了。我离开。

我希望，明天，能够听到你的声音。

“一路顺风，事事顺利”，从你口中说出，会是那么的温暖。

*我知道，你不会看到我的文章，也不会亲口告诉我。

那就是你。

谢谢

首先，我很感谢今天有来我们gathering/farewell的队友们/EX队友们~~

我真的很很感谢你们！！

我很想告诉你们，我很久没有看到你们的笑容了~~

很久没有听到你们值得高兴的消息了！

今天，我再次看见你们，再次看见你们笑容~~

虽然没有全部到齐，但是，我真的很感谢你们。

很感谢你们还那么疼我~那么地支持我！那么地关心我！谢谢你们。

我希望通过这一次的“相聚”，没有规则的约会上，你们可以得到快乐！

得到以前的感觉。我也只有能帮助你们这些！

很多人都说，“慧玲是我们的前任主席，她很尽责，处处以band为中心，为band着想。”

谢谢你们的称赞。我也知道，你们以前，也是有不满意的地方，我也知道，我也有不足的地方。

谢谢你们以前的种种包容~~

尤其是跟我一同做事们的ajk们。谢谢你们。

还有，如果以前少了你们任何一位，不会有今天的我。我不会懂得那么多~

你们以前都看过我常常为乐队而哭吧。

甚至有时候觉得你们的主席（ex）我，很没有用，常常哭。甚至会开始对我有点反感。

是的，我也有那样觉得过。因为之前的我，我没有经验过那些“逆境”，所以……而我，也会常常因为这个缺点，而自责。

但是，谢谢你们，谢谢那些我所面对的问题，是你们，以及那些问题，让我成长，从跌倒中再次爬起来。那是我很好的回忆！我也要感谢一些人，如慧洁，双仪，苹果，景文等等（还有很多，如果没有被列到名字，请见谅），他们都常常成为我的“意见提供者”或者“情绪治疗”人员。非常感谢他们。当然还有我那群可爱的juniors们。

接下来，有一些东西想对你们说，希望你们都能看到，如果可以，麻烦通知别人记得上来看看。

一些junior们，其实，我很开心，也很希望你们有问题时，会告诉我，至少，让我觉得，你们还记得有我。我的意思不是要你们把问题丢给我解决，而是把矛盾，困境告诉我，让我知道。我也知道你们有些是因为不想让我操心，而不告诉我。

我相信！还有很多senior会愿意听的。虽然不至于帮上忙，但至少懂你们的处境。

前阵子，在短短的时间内，发生了很多事情。

有些人甚至认为以前那么熟悉的团体，已变成散沙。

听到这，当然会觉得心痛。但是，难道你们就打算继续这样下去？

以前，可以从散沙变成大石头，今天，同样的，那一个石头变出来的散沙，也可以变回一块大石头。以前能，现在也一定能！

你们会说，现在跟以前不一样了。但是，你们要知道，我们这些“旧竹”会被取代，而你们就是取代我们的“新竹”。不能够永远靠着我们。明白吗。

回忆，是让人回想而觉得快乐，温馨。而不是让人停滞下来，永远活在那个环境中。可以怀念，不能迷恋。

现在在任的senior们，你们也要好好加油。为你们，以及juniors编辑回忆。junior们也要加油为你们，团队，以及senior们编辑美好回忆。属于你们大家的回忆。我相信你们都行的！！

（可能你们觉得我罗嗦，但是，原谅我就是那样的女生）

希望昔日的你们真的能够“回来”，甚至迎向更美好明天。

四月五日，我就得飞了。到了那儿，我希望我能够很快听到你们的好消息。

你们可以常常email告诉我的。

你们要加油！！支持你们！等你们的好消息哦~！！

对某些人的话：

waikit :我的助手。应该是常常见识我的怪脾气/处理方法的那一位。抱歉！

她，解决的我的忧郁。（因为，我很难做决定，像患了“选择恐惧症”一样）

谢谢你！

apple:谢谢你以前那么帮忙我。总是照顾“无知”的我。

谢谢你筹备这一次的聚会以及饯行。辛苦你了。还麻烦你去载他们来。

fish : 以前常坐在我身边的女生。

常常成为我的第一个情绪垃圾桶。常常第一个看见我哭的就是她。抱歉！

谢谢你愿意在我哭时，安慰我。

yanling:常常为我们节目出意见的那个。给我们一些很有趣的意见！

谢谢！

jinwen:常常与他有争执的。但是，有些时候，他的意见是很好的。

他也是领略过我的脾气。抱歉。

谢谢！

ajk-ajk:虽然你们很不爱交laporan,但是，我还是要收。你们也算是有交给我。我也知道你们每一 个人的工作都不简单。谢谢你们！！

ah sam & siew meng:（ 我私下告诉他们好了，他们不懂看全部的华语字。）

huishian:谢谢你愿意在饯行聚会中发表你的言词。

出席聚会的所有人：谢谢你们愿意出席。感谢你们！期待以后的相聚！

其实，还有很多很多，如，制造气氛的志森，有“怪怪”就问我的丽俐，性格古灵精怪（我认为）的指挥，展辉，有大爱精神的坚业，随随便便的josh（他也有认真的一面）,“发乔”的jimmy，等等等。。。还有那一群junior们，笑声永远大过讲话声的那群，视我如姐姐的那群，等等等。。。这些都说不完的。。。一切尽在不言中！

饯行聚会也给我了一个美好的回忆！谢谢大家！

其实，junior们也不必破费买那些礼物给我。

实在破费了！谢谢你们！

谢谢你们新手制造的卡片！谢谢！

谢谢一群那么爱我的junior们！谢谢。因为太多，请恕我没有列名。感受到就好。

我会永远记得你们，想你们的！

我会永远记得“忍耐，服从，牺牲”，那也是我们“相遇”的标记！

四月五日，我就离开鲁~~剩下的时间不多了，做得东西也有限了~~

*飞机中午十二点起飞。但是，如果要打电话给我，最迟最迟也只能在十一点。

*看到的有关人士，请将它“宣传”。谢谢。

看到的，也麻烦留一留言，以示你看过了。谢谢！

*请原谅一些没有被列名。因为一切尽在不言中。

*照片，迟点才上传，因为，开始很很忙了。抱歉哦！

Recently

好久没有update了~
最近很忙以下，忙着出passport,忙着身体检查，postpone plkn 等等等....
为什么那么忙呢？
因为我快要出国了。
我要去新加坡读书了。
我四月五好酒会出发了。。
别以为我很有钱，可以去新加坡读书。
而是，我拿了那边的奖学金。
我的课程是diploma in nursing..护士哦~~~
要读三年，我三年的学费全免，而且还会给我一些生活津贴。
一开始，我只打算读中六的。
并没有想到会这样。
我觉得，那是我人生的转折点。
我现在没有走在直路上，我没有直直走。
上天让我遇到这个机会来一个转弯，到达另外一个地方。
欣赏，体会另一些风景。
我既然有缘分知道这个奖学金的存在，
既然有运气面试成功，成功被录取。
那我就得好好把握这一次的机会。
我知道爸妈为我的事情很烦。
因为之前的一些申请手续问题，但是，一切已经过去了。
我也即将要去新加坡了。
我答应，我一定会好好用心去读。
尽我的最大能力争取最好的成绩！
我希望，去到另一边生活的我，能够脱离以前的我！
我要好好活下去！

家人们，
姐妹们，
朋友们，
我的狗狗们，
我会想念你们的。
在那边，我会常常上来update,拍一些生活照post上来的。
距离离开的日子，只剩下几天，我要好好珍惜这几天。
四月五日。。。
Another 4 days ...


*如果在离开之前，得到你们的短讯/来电祝福，我会很warm,很幸福~很快乐~
因为你们没有忘记我~

难过

现在的心情。无法形容~~

就是伤心，难过，心痛~~

好想好想哭~~

心里仿佛在淌着血。

心中的忧愁，难以形容~~

为什么会那样？？

简直就是晴天霹雳！

还要在现在的非常时期！

很辛苦叻！

是自己自找的麻烦吗？

自作自受吗？

我觉得是~~

那些都是惩罚自己的~~

自己要来的后果~~

怎么办？

怎么办？

我脚软了，我很害怕~~

突然有种想撞墙的念头。

但是，撞了墙还是要面对~

一且不能回头了。

也不是意外，那是事实！

我毕竟还是要面对的！

我不能再像个小孩~~

*谢谢你的慰问，你是第一个！

Tired

After a week holiday for CNY, my work is "reopen"..hehe

This mean, I am very tired..

There are many student..

Then,less teacher..

Furthermore,they are many homeworks..!!

Sucks!!

What a busy work!!

The students were very noisy!!!

Damn it!!!

I just have one body nia~~cannot separate to many places!!

I will become angry and crazy if the student do not follow my instruction!!

Sometimes,i think that the student homeworks which given by school teacher are the tuition teacher"responsible" to do it..

The students will pack all the questions and throw to the tuition teacher and never try to solve it before tuition teachers help them answer!!

Hate this kind of student!!

They will become brainless!

Their EQ and IQ also will be less and lesser!!

Don't they know?

Sometimes,I also hate that kind of parent !

They love their childs very very much!!

The teachers doing some good things for their childs,BUT the parent do not like to cooperate!!

I think their student will not "growth" and the result.....haizzzz...

*stay calm..i told myself*

虎年快乐呀

好久没有上来update了。

原因就是懒和闷咯~~

最近都有做工~~每天放工回家都已经晚上十点了.

冲凉，吃东西，都差不多十一点了。

再看一看戏，睡觉去咯。

隔天又睡到九点十点，下午才去工作。

还没工作那段时间都是看戏咯~~

我最爱看戏。哈哈！！

时间过得很快。农历新年咯！！

新年的愿望都离不开身体健康，出入平安，事事顺利。

我也希望家里的环境变得好些。

我要加油！！我要争气！

也祝身边的朋友虎年快乐！

*虎虎生威

*心想事成

*虎年行大运！

更住大家学业进步，金榜提名！！！

虎年好好好！！！

wohoooooooooo!

这个新年还蛮闷的。应该说每年都那么闷~~

没有去很多地方拜年，也没有去玩。就在家咯~~

每天一直吃，吃，吃！！

一直情不自禁把可以吃的东西丢进去肚子~~

结果，更肥咯~~

哈哈。。

我要控制了~~

不然就真的暴肥~~哈哈

年初一，也是西洋情人节。

这个节日呢，我也是在家咯~~

没有情人嘛，只好自己跟自己过咯~~

再加上这一天吃素，也u方便到处走~~赫赫

今天到这~~下一post也不懂会是几时了~~

咔咔！！~~~

=2010=

Welcome 2010.

New Year.New Day.New Hope.

2010 is here~~

2009 = our past tence.

hope the new year will best all the time..

health,safe,happy always

I may start to work when skul start to reopen.

Hope I can handle it,and i can get the salary that i should take.

I scare about this social..

aiyer~~

so dark..wat kind of ppl also have..

We should always be careful.

p/s:其实我不想埋没自己的良心的，但是，身不由己。可是，在那些情况，我会“口是心非”的。

表面上支持，心里会自己打算的。

我会找机会解脱的。