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Saturday, October 23, 2010

遇见



一见钟情….

有一些“一见钟情”可以容易被占有,拥有,买回来

好比如说,一见钟情的包包。

一见钟情的衣服。

一见钟情的鞋子。

还有一些容易得到一件钟情的东东。

对我来说,一见钟情的感觉是一种很强烈的感觉。

它会对你造成很大的影响。

它能影响你的情绪。

它能让你突然很有那种冲力出完成一样事情甚至预料不到。

至于,后悔不。因人而异吧。

有些人因为拥有了一见钟情而感觉很幸运,很幸福,因为那被自己“遇见”而且还来得及拥有。

有些则为因为来得太突然,某些神经未经过大脑而自己却做了某些后悔的举动而让自己后悔。

而我呢,买东西,如包包,衣服,鞋子等等,都会相信所谓的一见钟情。

大数都不会觉得后悔。但是“遇到”条件更好的,当然会觉得自己亏呢。那是常情。

但是最后还是不会后悔占有化一见钟情。


有些一见钟情并没有那么简单。

遇见他,就是不简单。

其实,“遇见”真的不那么简单

“相处”,以及“时间”也不那么的简单。

当“一见钟情”,“遇见”,“相处”与“时间”产生了化学作用,一切一切并不简单。

当我遇见了他,再不直接的相处那一小段的时间,真的不简单。

最后,时间更胜利地遥控着.

遇见他,再与他相处,时间控制了我对他的感觉。

之后,时间把我从中抽离,让我离开有他的倒影里。

我以为我能随着时间的迁变而摆脱那个临时演员的角色。

可是,时间却成了我的证人。

我还没忘却,我以为我还是那临时演员。

我还在有他的倒影里。

时间也见证了,过去就是过去。

我无法回到那有他脸孔的过去。

甚至,时间还一直提醒着我要抽离。

走在街上,我们仍然无法再像第一次那样有缘的遇上。

无论走到哪,都是那么希望着遇得见你,让自己开心。

也想让自己有个理由停留在那个角色,有你的倒影你,不想离开。

可是,事实是残忍的。

我们再遇不上了。

我记得以前,一天都会遇上你好几回。

有时候我会看着你,有时候会故意把视线放在你不在的方向。

现在,后悔了。

后悔当初没有看多你几眼。

但是,我依然记得你的样子,

记得你的眼神,

记得你的背影,

记得你走路的方式,

记得你的认真。

可惜,就是不记得你的声音。

有时候,

清醒的我会懂得提醒自己做该做的事情,那就是忘却。

但是,我真实的想法是忘却吗?

其实,我搞不懂

我是你的临时演员?又或者你才是我的临时演员?

也许,那才是真正的问题。

我好想再遇见你,可是,那样我会欺骗自己。

欺骗自己说与你有缘。

就如陶晶莹《我爱故我在》书中的“爱的预兆”sign of love,人们都会把一些些的恰巧说成是上天给的sign,缘分之sign

那就是所谓“为爱新人强说缘”

但是,我并不到究竟缘分会怎样。

不能断定什么。

对我,

总之,缘分天注定。

Sign 或不,也没有什么方程式去衡量吧。

Timing of Love应该是比较“重点化”。


Thursday, October 14, 2010

Be Right Back *again*



明天就要回去新加坡了。

第二学期将在下个星期一开学。
回到上课,又要碰那些presentation,tutorial,lectures....
比较喜欢lectures 课。
老实说,还是不那么喜欢 presentation 和tutorial。
那是因为presentation 和tutorial 不像lectures那样。
Lectures是几班一同上的。喜欢坐哪,和谁坐都行。
反而其他两个都是跟自己班上朋友的。
有时候,恨不得时间快点过。
到现在为止,我还没找到跟班上每一位同学沟通的方法。
我只是懂得某部分的。
无论怎样,对我来说是大挑战。
想起上个学期,算是满快过去的。
希望接下来的也会那样。
当然,我比较希望能够与他们相处融洽。
毕竟还要同班多两年半,直到毕业为止。
说到Presentation,下学期,又不懂会怎样分组。
这一个是最“挑战”的。万一进了不属于你的恒星。
考试分数,presentation 分数就这样了。
阿门!

现在的感受,和之前每次回去之前的都一样。
就是那种不愿离开的感觉。
第一次回家的时候,回去新加坡时,坐巴士。
当上了巴士,坐下来后,望下去跟爸妈挥手,哭了。
还记得上次八月份假期后回去。
一上火车,跟爸妈挥手,眼泪就已经流了下来!
我的眼泪至今依然败给那地心引力~
我还怕明天,我的眼泪又要言败!

每次到了这一刻,就会觉得自己很辛酸。
干吗要离开家。
回去上课就真的只是上课。
因为不喜欢那种气氛。
之前的我,去上课就是为了去上课。
去上课就是为了“出席”。
有点可悲。
我真的觉得自己不享受在那儿的学习。
上课,都期待放学,放假~!
老实说,当我回到新加坡的家后,我第一件会做得事情就是——倒数!
我会拿纸出来画格子。
倒数回自己家的日子。
每过一天就删除一天。
前几个月都是那样度过来的。
感觉上,新加坡除了是我读书和工作的地方,就没有其他的角色了。
我还没找到让我留恋的人事物。
我希望有一天,我不需要再这样倒数回家的日子...
我希望有一天,我会为了某人事物留在那,不奢望回家...
有时候觉得自己很可悲。
为什么要那样?
有时候会觉得很后悔!
但是,后悔已经没有用了。
现在要做的就是擦掉眼泪,删去懊悔,继续勇往直前!
日子会很很很很快过去的!!
加油!
我允许自己偶尔的跌倒!
但是不可以永远不起来!!!



My Long and Straight Hair

Yesterday,I cut my hair.

I cut it short.
Now,my hair only reach abt shoulder there only...(just over a bit)
This is the second shortest that i cut since my whole life till now.
I still remember that when i was at secondary school ,that is abt form3.
I cut the shortest in my life till now...
That one was accidently.I cried that time.I remember that time only left a small "tail"there.
I really sad and keep blame that cutter.I cried badly after i went home.
This time,no more accidently.
I request indirectly.
I said"Try your best to cut all damaged hair"..
Then.kena liao~!
That is abt 10cm cut off already..
I also cut my fringe short.I didnt keep it long.
But,i feel regret!
The fringe that cut for me is not as what i imagined.
That is not suitable for me~!
Damn sad now!
My hair was rebonded at June.
I cut it just after 4months.Is it worthy?
Inner struggling.Worthy(money) VS Damaged hair..
When I sit on the chair at the saloon.
The winner is damaged hair.
Once i done my cut,i feel regret.
Now,i am still wonder who will be the last winner for myself.
I miss my LONG STRAIGHT hairs .
Hopefully my hair can grow faster and use the shortest time to become long long long again.

Thinking that December (when i coming back again from Singapore )wanna to do something on my hair again...
Rebonding staright ? Perm curling hair ?
But,the most important matter right now is let my hair grow faster!!
Sad-ing and REGRETING !

Saturday, October 9, 2010

为什么啊?

有时候,我真的有点不明白。

为什么一些人明知道会被伤害还是要冲前去?
明明,身上已经留下深深的烙印。
那烙印就印在自己的回忆中,感情中。
为什么他们还是没有学会保护自己?
难道他们喜欢被伤害的感觉?
难道那就是所谓的犯贱?
对这些人,我真的无言!
也许,当中也有自己的乐趣。
当发生事情的时候,请别说后悔!
请别说很受伤。
请别说自己交错朋友!
请别再怪罪为什么他们那样对你。
因为,那是你自找的!!!
那...不是第一次!

还是??你也和那种人一样?
一样那么的人面兽心?
也只是禽兽一个?!
是吗?
也许,以后,我会知道答案!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Oprah Winfrey

“人生最冒险的事,就是你从来不冒险”
这一句话是出自于欧普拉(Oprah Winfrey)的。
这一句话有很深层的意义。
我觉得这一句话很不错。
我也觉得欧普拉很有想法。
她是一位不平凡的女人。
我很欣赏她。
赞!


http://www.cw.com.tw/article/index.jsp?page=3&id=35386





Thursday, October 7, 2010

The Student Nurse's Life Before Holiday

Well,my two weeks holiday are under progressing.
Alright,I am home(Malaysia) again lor...
Actually,maybe some
body will feel sienz ans ask"why this Hui Ling always come back one?"haha
My very very first clinical posting which last for three weeks ended .
That clinical posting can say that started with HORRIBLE+WORRY but ended with MEMORABLE+HOPE.
These three weeks,i had learnt a lot .Beside that,I was counting down for the last day of posting since the first day.
I got much feeling from the patient who admitted to the hospital.
Many of them are old age peoples.Some of them do not have any visitors even do not have any relatives.
They are so lonely and much pity than us.
I also found that,some of the patients do have sons and relatives.
But,they never come for visiting them.
They are really pity even that they need assistant for life.
What is the sons or daughters for if the peoples walk to old life like that.
Where are the sons or daughters when their old father mother need them?They are busy?Maybe...
Are they willing listen and take care of them?
I really cant understand.
However,i hope that i will not slap myself of what i had said myself when the future time.
I hope that i will beside my father and mother when they are old and need my caring.
I hope that i will not be one of the daughter who are busying for other when they need me.
At my posting period,i had assist some old patients.They need assistant for daily life.
When they helped by us,i saw into their eyes.
What i saw? There is not painful,not suffering but crying.
They were crying silently.
I saw loneliness from their eyes.
I saw helpless from their eyes too.
We do not know that how strong are they look forward for their relatives to visit them.
They are so lonely.
They are so helpless.
Even,they are so pity and they felt meaningless when nobody going for them.
What we (student nurses) trying to do is,caring for them.
Care for them,chat with them,there are the only things that we can do for them.
We are trying hard to do so when the time is allowed.

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For these three weeks,i am quite happy and joyful "working" with my colleagues.
I also got the chance for making more new friends.
Even we are not so close.
But,friends is better than enemy..hehe^^

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The next one is my very very close colleague..
She is Chit San.She is from myanmar.
Her name seem like chinese name.
She is very cute.
She is the only one who same ward,same room.and same shift with me.
I am quite appreciate her for these three weeks.
She helped me and encouraged me a lot.
She is a nice girl.I'm glad that she is my friend.
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Next is QIN RU...
She comes from China.
She is a very hardworking girl.
She has her own idea and not easy affect by someone..
How old is she?
haha..22 years old already...But,she looked so young...

>>>i like this photo so much ~~!!