HOW?!

Year2 Sem 1 semestral exam was totally over!

But,it is not ended with hurray,but worry!

One-third of my this semestral clinical posting was done as well.

Another two weeks to gi after reaching to Sg again from vacation leave.

Now,I am at my hometown.

I am resting. Enjoying?It may not consider as it.

Actually,I am worrying.

Why am I so oftenly to worry?

20th September'11 is result released day.

I must admit that I did badly in my this recent semestral exam.

I do not know the reasons.

I just did it badly.

I did study for that.

But it seem like my mind full-filled with rubbish or glass and I can't even put single information of my study inside.

I was not really remember what I memorised before the exam.

Maybe is my energy problem?

I did not rest well since a week before the exam period and lasting for everyday till the end of the exam.

I must get the moral from that!

I can't repeat the same mistake again for the next exam!

Last semestral exam result was GPA 3.43

Now,I can't imagine how will be my result is.

At first,I aim for over 3.5.

But,now.Can't do that anymore!

My target for now is maintaining the GPA at 3.0 or above 3.0.

I can't let it drop!

There are number of reasons why I so wanted to maintain my GPA even improve it.

But,I did it badly and can't even erase all of it and redo it again.

I am just hoping it is still maintained at above 3.0

Cannot be the number 2 to leading my GPA marks!

May the GOD blessing me.

I'm really regret about it!Next time shall rest well before the exam period starting.

GOD,please save me,I need your help.

This few days,I do not know why.

I was thinking my future,life and every decision I made.

What will I be after graduating my Diploma in Nursing?

Will I be just follow the contract that I signed,serving for all my 6 years bond at hospital then

plannning what to do after that?

Or,go further study for degree or advanced diploma just immediately once I get the qualify without waiting for sompleting six years bond?

This issue brings some other concern to myself.

Where should I have my degree course or advance diploma course?

Where is the study fee come from?

If I choose continue the course at local(mean Sg,cause my diploma is taking at Sg).

The study fees is already a big number,don't even think about oversea campus which I interested like Manchester,Sydney!

I can't bear the fees.

I can make it only if I get sponsor from hospital.

But,my bond will be taking longer and longer.

Then,when am I going to bond-free?

So,I have to save money when i start working.

The further courses for nursing require experience,at least one year.

So,I have one year to think about it and try to save money for that.

My target for myself is holding what I really as early as possible!

As time goes by,I seem like forget what is my dream.?

I'm really forget about it.

It is because I know the fact of my life already.

I,me....cannot keep holding the dream that I can't reaching.

I know the reality.

The dream,is just like touching the sky , for me.

So unreachable if you don't have money and power!